Oh god, the stupid strikes again.
So on a wim I dial up the ODSP IVR, the thing that tells me how much money I’m getting, or not getting, depending on your side of the fence, and get simarily told your file’s currently on hold.
after the appropriate amount of WTF happens, I ping my ODSP worker and go, last time I checked my file was fine, what the hell’s going on.
in list format have these appropriate amount of wtf results.
According to certain individuals I’m supposedly, ready?:

1. Married to krista.


2. We have a child on the way because I supposedly had unprotected sex.
3. I moved down their perminantly and didn’t report that to ODSP.

firstly, how the hell can I be married to krista when we’re not even engaged?
Secondly, a child? seriously? how the hell’d that happen, from 400 miles away? that’d have to be one long ass dick, ok? just… omg.
Thirdly? moved down their? really? except not. Wishful thinking, but sadly, didn’t happen.
So the result of that, kathy, my worker, now has to issue appropriate amounts of clue to get this fixed, and attempt to not die while laughing.
Kathy indicates this little implosion that is the stupid should be fixed by friday at the *latest*.
I was highly amused, in a, are you fuckin’ serious? kinda way.
The lengths some people will go to.
just, jesus christ.
Please do be not trying that again. You’ll fail, again.
unrelated: CNIB? *totally* blind is just that, totally, 0, no, sight, so take your low vision assessment and shove it up your ass. it’s not needed in this apartment. thanks for trying, though.

For those who still haven’t realized how this works, let me clue you in on a little something, and I’ll do you a favor and do it in list format.

• I am dating Krista. and sorry, I don’t share.


• She is not abusing me. unlike some others I could name.


• She is not taking advantage of me, or using me to get away from her parents. nor is she using me to pay her financial way in life, like someone else I could mention.


• I’m not in this relationship for sex, even if certain backwater scumbags think that’s all I think about/want in life/from a relationship.


• I’m not using
  james
  and his credit card to get what I want in life. Nor am I using him to finance my upcoming trip to the states. This is paid for by me, nobody else. All james credit card did was hold the ticket, I paid for it out of pocket. once again, thanks for playing.

So in short, please, get you an education, get your facts straight and jump off the highist cliff available to you, and don’t take a parrashute with you either.
thanks for playing, next, please?

so, I’ve scheduled another trip to see krista.
That trip, scheduled from February 1, 2011 to march 1, 2011.
This aughta be loads of fun. *grin, bounce.*.
unrelated: wordpress quit breaking and making my formatting fall all over the floor when my lazyness strikes and I copy and paste posts from notepad. thanks.

So, while reviewing this blogs archives for the past just over a year it’s time I come up with one of these.
I refer you to the disclaimer of content above to cover my ass as somethings in review here people might not like but to damn bad.
For lack of the fact that I’m in a mood, have it, in list format in reverse chronological order.

• July 2009

after breaking up with amber, I begin dating kerri, who has been refered to in multiple posts here on this blog.
I get heavily involved with arik, her child.

• September 2009

The relationship is still going strong, we’re in the middle of court central dealing with the fact that I’m supposedly blind, being a safety risk to children, yada yada.
I also attend my first concert. Marralyn manson. Fun times.

• November 2009

Kerri and i end up breaking up for a number of reasons we won’t go into.

• January 2010

I end up moving out of the queen street apartments into another building in a better area of town.

• April 2010

I end up starting to date chelsea, and we hammer out the meriad of paperwork required to get me across the boarder.
I aquire my passport and the ticket to go see her.


• May 2010

I go and spend a month in new york, meeting chelsea, and lauren, among others, and a grand time is had by all.
During this visit chelsea indicates she’s not ready for a long term relationship. so their that goes.

• June 2010

I return from the states to find the apartment I’m living in a mess, things not where they should be, etc. etc. etc.
At that point I’d already been looking into moving, but that, things being out of place and nobody taking ownership for the apartments state of mess, shoved that move ahead by alot.

• July 2010

I end up being hospitalized for what I thought, was a mild knee injury, but turned out not to be as mild as initially thought.
This month also brought me into contact with krista, who has been previously mentioned here as well, and our talking and interactions brought us to dating.

• September 2010

a ticket is booked to go see krista in november.
• October 2010

Issues at my current residence at the time started heating up and plans were slowly coming together for a major move after my return from the states to live with now my current roommate
james
• November 2010

My 2nd trip to the states, and first meeting with krista.
See entries from that month for complete details.

• December 2010

My move from hamilton to petawawa rounds out the just over a year of interesting major events.

So, that, in a nutshell is major happenings since july 2009.
Surf the archive of this thing if your looking for something specific that I may have posted here.

This entry isn’t a normal happy entry. it’s mostly gonna be rambling and has no order to it what so ever. Some parts may not even make sense but I just needed to write my feelings.
If you don’t like, stop reading, right the fuck now.
So I went downtown today to do monthly banking, bills, the usual shit, and thought, fine, I’ll see if I could track down kerri, and she could make this go a hell of a lot faster. Oh, I found kerri, all right, but who was she with? Fuckin’ josh! She ended up guiding me to the nearist TD, with josh and his snide comments all the way… things like, don’t touch my kid, keep your hands off, shit like that. It took everything I had not to turn around and belt him upside his fucking head with my cane. I’ve been more of a daddy to that child than he’ll ever be, I’ve made kerri happier for it, but josh doesn’t seem to fucking give up. Anyhow, I asked kerri if she was going to meet me back at TD so I could spend time with her and *my* child, but when I came out, she wasn’t their, come to find out josh had hauled her off to who knows where. Ended up catching up with her at jackson for a breef 30 seconds, because josh, probably thinking I was incompitent wants to feed her. Even though I’d said to her I’d take her to get something to eat. Needless to say after I grabbed something to eat I had to get assistance home, because my focus went to hell, I couldn’t concintrate to save myself. A nice gentlemen ended up giving me a ride because I think he saw my distress and inability to focus. I am now home, but I sit here asking myself, Am I wrong to feel left out? Am I wrong to feel like today was a waste of time? Am I a moron to think I’m doing the right thing? Why everytime I see kerri with josh do I have this inexplicable urge to strangle the fuck out of josh consiquences be damned? I understand josh is the baby daddy, but frankly, if he died I’d probably be happy for it as I know what he put kerri through and he deserves to be dead. I just don’t know, I know where her loyalties, kerri’s loyalties lie, but their’s still a part of me going, shane? You’ve been screwed before. This only happens when I know she’s with josh or I see josh with her downtown. I’m so afraid, so insecure right now it’s scary. I feel like I’m falling again, and nobody can catch me. I know who I love, but everytime I see sperm donnor I wonder, is he going to attempt to fill her brain with shit, and cause her to leave? I know this isn’t true, but my brain still thinks it.
ok, I’m done for now.
Sorry about the unorderlyness of this entry.
Before I go, everyone who knows me knows who I love, and who I want to marry, who’s child I call my own, and who I’ll give my life for if it means her and that child survive. That child may not be my own biologically but blood aside, he’s my child, and nobody will change that.
I will try and come up with something with more substance in it at another time.

good morning fellow blog readers.
we’ve got lots to cover. so let’s roll!
Let’s start with toronto.
Things went OK, kerri and I picked up the paperwork that we needed to pick up and spent the rest of the day bumming around with emily.
We ended up meeting up with earle and rose, and met their child, Genevra, in the process.
So that’s toronto, the long and short.
hamilton Drama… let’s see. The thing of note this time around is one josh remellzwaal (remmalzwall for jaws, for the sake of this entry we’ll call him ding bat.) anyhow, he starts running his mouth, oh CAS has a problem with me, I’ll be going down, how they looked up my previous information from brantford, oh god it goes on.
Anyhow, We end up reaching the worker he mentions, and sadly, oh my god, CAS has nothing against me, she *has* never spoken with josh, never will speak with josh, and their was never a conference. yada yada fucking yada. The short, josh, lying, again! Am I surprised? not really, it’s something I’ve come to expect from the little crippled mentally in need of a psychic evaluation specimen of a human. He’ll lie to get his own way, but what this little dimwitted moron fails to realize is that, this crap will come back to bite him in the ass, and then he’ll continue to lose, until someone finally knocks his lights out, or runs him over, whatever happens first. Either or, I don’t care which, as long as he’s taken out of this world.
Ok, finally, oh yes, this is good!
Kerri was served papers today, I won’t go into details, because it aint my story to tell, but needless to say, their are a few things I’d like to say, and please, feel free to comment.
In these papers, Mrs. Barb jenkins, (hereafter refered to as idiot for my own retribution), states to the effect of, Kerri’s current boyfriend is blind, meaning he cannot look after arik, and arik is at risk being around him. She says something similar about Kerri’s father in the same set of documentation.
She also says in that documentation that she’s not discriminating?
Excuse me you stupid idiot, but you are, so get ready to die. Oh idiot who thinks she knows all, what facts do you have that state that, I, (or any other blind/visually impaired individual) cannot look after a child, or that blind persons around children are putting the child(s) in danger?
She also mentions that kerri’s father being visually impaired requires special assistants so makes it impossible for him to participate effectively in the raising/care of arik?
Yet again, I raise the question, on what fact do you base your accusations ms. I have all these high priced lawyers?

Please, if I’m missing something here, highly unlikely, someone, correct me!
Their’s a lot more that I’m not at liberty to disclose right now, but if I do get permission, you can bet I’ll be back with more of this interesting paperwork.
Oh wait, their r a few more things, how the hell, if the child was born on november 3, 2007, could he have been placed in kinship care on September 15, 2007?
Time travel anyone?
yeah, according to the *hand written* letter attached to the papers, that was the date listed for kinship care.
Oh, wait, and the child was born on november 11, 2007? no, birth cirtificate states the 3rd of november, not the 11th.
Does anyone see the buildup of mistakes in this set of paperwork?
Let’s see, what else is wrong with this set of documentation.
Oh yes, supposedly Josh signed his rights over to his mother? Um, no, wrong!
firstly, the letter you enclosed with said papers was never signed by a court judge/justice of the piece, so it’s invalid on that part, and second, you don’t sign your parental rights over to anyone you just sign them away, so again, you lose!
and their’s also something in their, about asking the court for an order to trap kerri here in hamilton?
I’m sorry, but legally, you *cannot* do that. you can prevent her from leaving the country, but if she chooses to leave hamilton, that’s her right as a citizen, and that, again, is a violation of her rights.
Am I the only one seing the buildup for a case dismissal here?
With that out of the way, let’s talk about this knew book.
While in toronto a book title, wake, was mentioned.
I liked what I was hering about it, so I went after the book.
I now have the book, and once I’ve read it, I’ll be sure to post my thoughts.
Ok, that’s it for now.
the comment boards await you!
piece ya’ll.

good morning fellow blog readers,
I’m posting this, why? because I can.
not a lot to get to this entry, so let’s get to it.
First things first.
myself and kerri are going to toronto today to put ourselves on the housing list their, why? because we’re both sick and tired of the hamilton drama, the problems it’s causing us, etc. etc.
Emily did warn me when I moved here, but me, as usual, didn’t listen to advice.
The other thing is josh, (the baby daddy to kerri’s child), fucking called here and because I answered the phone, shits supposedly going to go down.
He told kerri this, that next time I answered the phone, shit was giong to go down?
*laughs insanely*!
Hey you wheelchair bound think with your dick moron, at 1AM in the morning, I will not wake kerri for you or anyone else, except her immediate family, and only then, if it’s an emergency.
You talk shit, but you don’t realize that your just a puny disabled moron that wants a piece of ass and doesn’t use the head attached to your shoulders.

The head he thinkswith is between his legs. and from what kerri’s told me, that head’s nothing to write home about either.
ok, that’s it for now.
I’ll write more when I get back from toronto.

Hello faithful readers.
As a lot of you know the past month has been spent planning and putting into motion the necessary stuff to bring amber up here.
Well, as of this past sunday, she arrived safe and sound at 5:01AM EDT.
The only complication was a jam up at the boarder when boarder control called and woke me to ensure that this was indeed where she was going.
It’s been a good time, we’ve just been hanging out, getting to know each other more, getting out and about, and doing things we both like doing.
I’m not going to stay long as I need to grab a shower and stuff, but thought I’d post a quick entry for you all.
take care and talk to yall soon.